Can you count the stars?

And he brought him outside and said, "Look toward heaven, and number the stars, if you are able to number them." Then he said to him, "So shall your offspring be."- Bereishit/ Genesis 15:5

Avram only wished for one son but even one seemed impossible. He didn't dare to wish for two sons or three, only one... if he could have only one son... but it was not possible.
Adonai sees him and knows that Avram understands his own circumstances better than anyone else. He sees him tormented by his unfulfilled desire and sees him as he starts counting, but he stops at one and one seems and infinite and impossible number.

Adonai calls upon him "Fear not, Avram, I am your shield; your reward shall be very great." Then takes him outside and tells him "Look toward heaven, and number the stars, if you are able to number them." Then he said to him, "So shall your offspring be." In other words "Avram, do you think that your impossible is too much for Me? Is that all you got? JUST THE IMPOSSIBLE?" Avram listens and he starts counting: 100, 1000, 1000000.... then stops and suddenly gets it that even if he were a mathematician he couldn't come up with the impossible for Adonai.
Maybe you began wishing for the impossible and I mean the kind of impossible that there is no way on earth to make it possible; the kind that no way, no how and by no means can be accomplished. But you can't help but wishing for that impossible. You can't rest at night because of it and all day long your thought is just at how impossible found it's way in your heart and everything it is represents everything you are. I don't mean having a great car or an airplane landing on your lawn, but the kind of dreams and desires that look beyond your body or soul. The kind of dreams that make you break down at His feet pleading for fulfillment.
And maybe you start counting and you stop at 1 because it feels like even 1 is too big of a number even for Adonai.
I think that if it's within His plan, the pattern is the same as with Avram. If you feel like challenging Him then try a bit harder because I assure you that humanity was not able yet to issue a big enough number that would leave Adonai breathless and say to Himself  'this is too much, seriously!'
Think about the most impossible thing you can come up with and I am sure that He will think 'is that all?'
You can never wish for more than He can give, but He doesn't give you your dream only because you wish for it, but He grants it only when you know, that you know, that you know that you've asked a limited thing to an unlimited God.

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