” In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,
and the Word was God.” – John 1:1
This Saturday I was watching this experiment designed to
show the way a human brain functions when it comes to reading words. I’m not
sure to what extent that works in all languages, but in English, if you keep
the first and the last letter of every word, regardless of how you mix the
letters inside, it will allow the mind to actually make sense of the words, or
interpret every word it reads.
As I was watching this, it came to mind the fact that Yeshua
said He is the Alpha and Omega (A Ω first and last letters of the Greek alphabet),
or Alef and Tav, ( א ת first and last letters of the Hebrew alphabet). I understood that whether it’s a word, a concept, an idea or
a theory, if it begins and ends with Yeshua, then things make sense even if
they seem chaotic inside.
Many times I
struggle to utter the right idea concerning a concept that I think I grasped
about Adonai and I am not always successful to get everything exactly right
every time and as I grow I see that I’ve misplaced one letter, still I know
that if I keep the first and last letter in place, it makes sense. I may be
misspelling in every single language that I try to write in and sometimes I’m
convinced that that’s how it’s spelled, but even when I’m wrong, whoever wants
to understand, understands. Sometimes I may not be able to express every
thought or concept in a flawless theology, but if He is the beginning and the
end of every word, then it can be understood even if it needs a spell check.
I thought about
Yov (Job) and how he began with every word spelled exactly ‘right’, metaphorically speaking.
Everything made sense. Things were simple. He had only one theory guiding him:
If you are a righteous man and try to do good and if you fear HaShem (God) and
seek to do His will, then the result can only be good; you have nothing to fear
because no evil shall befall you and no harm will come to you and yours.
Simple. Until all the horrendous things happened to him and his family and all
that was left of his theory was a pile of jumbled letters. And it took him a
while to make sense of it all. When I read about how he had sat and analysed
everything, it almost seems like he was trying to put back together a puzzle
that has been scattered by the wind everywhere. If you’re trying to solve a
puzzle you first have to find all the outer pieces, those that make out the
perimeter of the puzzle, those that define its limits.
If you try
to define a certain situation when the accuser keeps asking, ‘where is your
God? And if He is, doesn’t He care that you’re about to perish?’, then you have
to start with the Beginning and finish with the End, as retarded as that
sounds. Every explanation that you want to give yourself must start with Yeshua
and end with Him, otherwise nothing will make sense.
There are
high chances that maybe you won’t reach the right conclusion concerning the ‘why?’,
but as long as your thought ends with ‘even so, He is still my God’, then you
have nothing to worry about.
Sometimes
it so happens that everything you know about Him is tested. And it happens that
you end up with a lot of your theories either dead or crippled, but as long as
you keep the first and the last letter in place, it’s OK, breathe!
Just because all
your letters are jumbled, it doesn’t mean it’s unintelligible. It only means
that you’re about to find out that Adonai gave you the strength and wisdom to
read situations as if they’re spelled right and that’s because He has placed
Himself and the beginning and the end of every word.
Bat Melech בת מלך
Cristina כריסטינה
